Another girl problem sprung up recently, where I see that a friend of mine was starting to avoid me because she thinks I'm desperate to get her as a girlfriend. Well yeah honestly I still like this girl, but my feelings have been toying with me and I didn't control them well again, and hence this problem happened (again).
It's a good thing I have a friend that is on talking terms with her, so he can help me find out more about how she views me and such. But I don't want to keep using him.. Plus, he really plans to help me, but only to a certain extent.
Right now, I just thank God that I can control these emotions a lot better. The past few days were horrible for me as I was emo-ing about this issue (there's more to this but I will not reveal it here). So anyway, it's nothing to be emo about now, but to stand strong, and if possible fix it naturally (without rushing).
And when I thought things were really falling apart, this friend keeps assuring me it's not as bad as I think it is. I'll do what I can to set things right, but only very carefully this time.
FYP has been bugging me a lot.. There's less than 1 month to go to finish it, and I don't see that i have progressed much. But this was a good time to find out about this matter and try to settle it.
Anyhow, I'll let God come into my life and give me guidance on what I have to do now and in the near future. =) I've trusted my heart and mind too much, and I keep falling. I should listen to him more.
"Trust the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding.
In all ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight."
To the girl friend I'm referring to in this post, if you are reading this just know that I will not act awkward anymore. Rest assured. It'll be fine. Like I said (indirectly), "Give me time to normalize" =)